Tired and HAPPY af.

Yes, to be clear… “af” stands for “AS FUCK”

You’re welcome for my starting this post with a curse word. I’m all about keeping it classy.

Very rarely in my life have I had the pleasure of being TIRED and HAPPY.. like at the same time. I’ve spent many years living in an “exhausted” state where I literally felt like I was dragging myself to do each thing that was on my seemingly never-ending to do list. I’ve also spent time having a lot of fun, adventuring the world, going out, dancing, and etc and felt truly HAPPY.

But this week something clicked for me. I am both TIRED and absolutely ecstatic and happy. like so happy. Happy AF to be clear.

I realized that for the first time in a long time I’m genuinely engaged in all the moments of my day. I’m not moving through the motions and just showing up for work and doing my job and then going home and parking in front of the TV or doing some workout. Instead, I’m mindfully approaching each part of my day. I’ve been noticing and acknowledging the impact that my work is having on other people’s lives. It’s not so much about the “doing” anymore, it’s about the “being”. I’ve embraced all the things I do and all the things I accomplish as being blessings in my life. I GET to wake up and go to work each day. I GET to teach yoga classes after work. I GET to talk to dozens of clients from all walks of life and help them solve their problems.

I’ve been waking up earlier and working later. Partially out of necessity, but also out of willpower – I GET to do more for more people and change more lives! By the time I go home each day, the only thing left for me to do is collapse, but instead I find myself thinking of my clients and thinking about all the ways to make the next day as fruitful as possible – the juices seem to never stop flowing in my head.

I’ve studied personal development rather excessively for the better part of the last 3.5 years… but I never felt it in my body until this week.

There’s energy in living and breathing and helping others every single day.

There’s energy in being tired.