Forgiveness is Selfishly Wonderful

Oftentimes we get stuck in a cycle of hatred. A cycle of feeling bitter towards the world for all the things gone wrong and all the things we haven’t managed to quite get a handle on. We’re bitter about our past and all the people that wronged us, all the failed relationships, all the struggles. We’re bitter about all the things not going quite as planned in the present. We’re bitter about how unpredictable the future is. It seems difficult to get past this “rut”.

Good news though – it’s all in your head!

I spent some time meditating this morning on what’s really important to me in life and a word kept popping up over and over – control. And then it clicked that I am a person that needs to feel like I have control over what’s happening in my life, and that in all the times where I’ve felt out of control, I’ve also felt out-of-balance and in a “rut”. Every time there was uncertainty over various elements of my life – whether it’s work, or relationships, or health, I’ve always experienced some level of anxiety along with it. It was an interesting revelation that led to quite a bit of time spent on being introspective.

The problem with being attached to having control is that you also have to be willing to forgive when you lose control. Which is also the part I struggle with. So this morning, I wrote out all the things in my life that I decided to forgive myself for. All the times that I lost control over something. All the things that I’m not quite good at keeping consistent with. All the bad habits and the good habits. All the past junk and all the potential future questions. I let it all go and decided to accept everything I have and accept everything I don’t have and love every beautiful second of it.

Happy Saturday loves ❤